i broke up with stasia.


bye

i had two drug test today, one for walmart and one for Lowes


lowes gave me a saliva test :

Saliva

The general procedure is to keep the subject from drinking or inserting anything in the mouth for a period of time…about 15 minutes. A collection of saliva is then obtained and either mixed with chemicals or placed onto a color-test strip in order to determine the presence of alcohol or other drugs. This general procedure is also used to test levels of hormones and other body chemicals. Once widely used for the testing of illegal drugs, its use is now declining; the time period during which alcohol and drugs can be detected by this method is relatively low, 3 hours to 4 days max.


and walmart gave me a urine test:

Urine

Urinalysis has long been a tool of medical labs to detect kidney problems and other body diseases or malfunctions. More recently, it is being used to detect the presence of Alzheimer's disease. It is now widely used for the testing of alcohol and drugs, which can be detected for several days to weeks after use, depending upon the type, frequency, and amount. One of the original methods of avoiding detection was to make a mixture of fake urine, which would be poured, from a container into the specimen cup by the user. Others would save clean urine from when they were not using, for use later. Testing labs caught on to this trick and started asking clients to empty their pockets and leave their purses outside of the lavatory when they went in to give their specimen. Along came a contraption called the "Whizzinator" that is tied to the leg or waist underneath clothing. It contains a small pouch into which clean or fake urine is poured for later retrieval in the restroom.

Labs know what the temperature of a fresh urine sample should be and they also know that a sample should have blood particles in it of the blood type of the person being tested; so it is riskier to try and evade the urinalysis test by using a urine substitution. Labs take the specimen and either mix it with chemicals or dip a chemical colored test strip into it; or in some cases they examine it more closely in lab testing devices, depending on the type of substance they are looking for. This test is now usually used for random job tests, or when an employer feels he has cause to test you, because they can get a faster answer.

stasia says somestuff that really bothers me ut il let it go. ohwell

here we are again



today my phone got taken in class, iwasnt even on it it was jsut in my hand goin in my pocket as iwas doing that teacher goes give me your phone
i gave it to her
i talked to her she said get it after school
orw/e so icalled my mom from front office tolet her know whats up she was mad.


i elft school went home when i came home she was beingabitch about it, like i dontlearn my leason from gettingit taken away she has tomake sure its drilled in my head, bullshit.


anyways my mom was saying how its becomn a problem that imonthe hpoen late at night, and i talk whenim driving, andi cant follow rules so i guess im grounded or somthing idfk

why does it matter if imup til 12 on the phone i have all a's and b's my highschool best, yet imgetting pennalized for it?


i mean whogives afucki havnt gotten into anacident since started driving, about over 2 years.

i mean everytime i make apositive choice impushed back by my mother,


seattle sounds so awesome, i wish i could move with tim if he chooses too

id try to take stasia with me but she cant leave yet.


so idk. imjust readdy to leave.

i really am

i went to tims house because i was over my moms bitching


then we went to albertsons and got pom tea and some vegi soup for stasia and tookit over there she doesnt like soup i dontko why she asked for some. but anyways atleast igot tosee her and she liked the tea.

oh mother.

how i do love you, but you treat me like im a 14 year old trouble maker. she treats me like shit. i really cant stand it shes one of hte biggest hypocrites i know.


there are times where i give in i know but its like if i dont then i fel bad, but other times i dont understand why she has to take every thing out on me its not my fault that shes been living alife of pain the past few years but yet im treated like it is.


ive fucked up once, i stole got arrested but i learned from that. and she cant realize that im nota trouble maker i could be a very shitty person but im not yet im treated like acriminal im really sick and tired of it because

ill go out of my way to do things that makes her happy, yet really shes never happy.

it makes no sense to me i cant do anything right, ever. ill do laundry or start it then ill want togo hang with friends ill leave a load in the dryer and she gets mad that i left laundry, um hello.

atleast im responsible enoguh to do these things with out her asking,

i mean what the fuck does she want me to do.









ive noticed ever since i told her i dont belive in god shes treated me like i worship the devil.
which i dont so fuck that. she really needs to grow the fuck up and realize iman adult and ineed tobe treated like it she bitches atme about childish shit, or if i do something she doesnt liek shell bitch but if i bitched at her for doing somthing i dont like im in deep shit, so its like what do i fucking do? ive tried talkin to her it fixes things for about hmm 5 minutres or makes it worse

the last few fights weve gotten into ive been so close to leaving but i kow if i do i probably wont beable to come back fora hwile, but maybe its what i need, achance at freedom.

what do yout hink i should do?

besides fix typos lol

high?


yes high i got high today with tim and josh. and honestly i really enjoyed it.


it wasnt anything iever expected but it was aewsome

this isn't important I'm just curious .


Sort by song title:
First Song: 'til days shall be no more
Last Song: you wish is my command by kill your idols


Sort by time:
Shortest Song: youve been used by know the score
Longest Song: mywall by sunn0)))

Sort by album:
First Song: 3750 by the acacia strain / 3750
Last Song: out(break)tro bye outbreak / you make us sick

Top Five Most Played Songs:
1- two for flinching - kid dynamite
2- three 6 mafia - stay fly chopped and screwed
3-Bsemmbty -youth attack
4-the sadist nation - darkest hour
5- PAY PHONE AND PILLS - DARKEST HOUR

First song that comes up on Shuffle: game over - guns up!

"sex" - how many songs come up? ZERO! lol
"death" - how many songs come up? 97
"love" - how many songs come up? 10
"you" - how many songs come up? 166

next two pairs of shoes

( ) stayed single the whole year.
( ) got your first kiss
(x) kissed someone new
( ) made-out for the first time
(x) made-out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
( ) kissed in the rain
(x) fell in love
( ) fell in love with a fool
(ehh) had your heart broken
(x) broke someone else's heart
( ) had a stalker
(x) had a good relationship with someone
( ) questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) gotten someone else pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) gotten married
( ) had a divorce
( ) had a gay marriage
(x) kissed someone of the same sex
(x) dated someone you'll never forget
( ) done something you've regretted
(x) lost your love
( ) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under miseltoe

WORK/SCHOOL

( ) got a promotion
(x) got a pay raise
(x) changed jobs
( ) lost your job
(x) quit your job
( ) dated a co-worker
( ) dated your boss
( ) dated your boss' daughter/son
( ) got fired from your job
( ) got straight A's
(x) met one teacher you really like
(X) met one teacher you really hated
( ) found the subject you love
( ) failed a class
( ) cut class
( ) skipped school
( ) got into a fight with a classmate
(x) did something you were proud of
(x) discovered a new talent
(x) gave the teachers a reason to teach
(x) proved yourself an idiot
(x) embaressed yourself in front of the class
( ) fell in love with a teacher
( ) got a lead in the school play
( ) made a varsity team
( ) made junior varsity team
(x) were involved in something you'll never forget
( ) got sent to the office

OTHER

(x)painted a picture
(x) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand
(x) double-dipped
(x) skinny-dipped
(x) went to a sleepover
(x) went to camp
( ) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
(x) laughed till you peed in your pants
(x) flirted shamelessly
( ) visited a foreign country<--
( ) visted a foreign<-- state<---?
(x) cooked a disasterous meal
(x) lost something important to you
(x) got a gift you adore
(x) realized something new about yourself
(x) went on a diet
( ) tried to gain weight
( ) dyed your hair
(x) came close to losing your life
( ) someone close to you died
(x) went to a party
(x) drank alchohol
(x) drank alchohol underage
( ) tried drug(s)
( ) got drunk
( ) got arrested
(x) read a great book
(x) saw a great movie
( ) saw a movie so scary it made you cry
(x) saw your favorite band/artist live
( ) saw
someone famous in person
(x)did something you want to tell everyone

i miss shows. i havnt spent any time or money at one ina while. i feel like a drop out.


i miss that shit so much, this years starting off great with some amazing shows so its a god tiem toget back into the swing of things

400 doller check bitches.

for xmas i got a shirt and the jiibs CD from stasia.

class ring stereo shit for my car, iHome from mom and dad

and a Gators Shirt from my Cousin.


thanks everyone.


oh yeah me and timare doing some exchangin as well but it hasnt happend yet.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
- sean
- Seanie(by most girls)
- fat-ass

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
- I'm funny
- I'm a nice dude
- I'm confident

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
- I can be an asshole
- i let work take over my life
- I don't sleep or exercise enough

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
- German
- Italian
- Welsh

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
- Dying
- Dying
- all my friends and family Dying

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
- Music
- college football Related(tv website ect)
- cell phone

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
- shirt
- BBALL SHORTS
- N/a

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
- Minor threat
- Pelican
- have Heart

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE ALBUMS:
- Kid Dynamite - shorter, fast, louder
- Down to nothing - splitting headache
- have heart - what counts

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
- I love chillin with bros
- I love football
- Im a faggot

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
- getting drunk
- moving out
- getting good paying job

THREE THINGS YOU NEED IN A RELATIONSHIP:
- FUN
- honesty
- hankie pankie

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
- keep a steady relationship
- Fold laundry correctly
- school

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
- playin bass(gettin better lol)
- hangin out is what i do best(lol)
- collecting records/shoes

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
- hang with tim and joe
- not go to church tonight
- open my fucking presents

THREE JOBS YOU'D CONSIDER DOING OTHER THAN THE ONE YOU HAVE:
- Music producer or recording studio engineer
- plumbing
- own a hovan :)

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
- india
- australia
- Hawaii

THREE KID'S NAMES:
- Tim
- John
- Josh


THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
- go on tour with a band
- get maried and have a family
- strike it rich so that i can give toeveryone that needs it more then me.

THREE PEOPLE WHO SHOULD COMPLETE THIS SURVEY:
- Tim bell
- Ashley Whynot
- daniel copley

my mom is sucha huge bitch its fucking crazy i tried to have a civil convo with her and later she turns it around on me that im downing ehr and shit. fuck that. i try my hardest to be nice and to be agood son and this is what i get? fuck that shit.

wow. i didnt realize until tonight that i work hard, for a very little amount of money.

im looking fora new job starting tomrrow.


ive been talking to stasia againwe are working througheverything inhopes fora friendship and things are looking up, for that.

shes being very negative at the moment, but with her home life, i would be too.

her mom sucks. but anyways.






anyone know where i canget a good job, that pays decent like 8 or more on hour. or that is alittle under that but really fun. haha




anyways.


random update. later.

antoher day at work.

jamie has surgery, and is out and racheal has a UTI so pretty much me and timare filling in for them. so im working alot more theni needed to this week.

anyways.

tim elt me borrow on of his charles bukowski books, theyare very interesting poems.

anyways.
im going to see municipal waste tomrro, hopefully, then in the ruins mondayat backbooth.


its beena while since ive been to a show.


stasia is sti being bitter. its kind of funny.

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